an allegory of affection from a Hindu goddess

I experienced the following dream: Walking through wilderness, I came upon a female tiger. She considered me, and I considered her—I calculated my next move through my fear, she simply calculated. Rapidly concluded that if I ran she’d chase me down and eat me. So I held my head up and approached her gently. Reached […]

here is my other cheek

An open letter, because direct contact is shut off: ———, Here is my other cheek:  Threaten me again if you must. You have my complete forgiveness and infinite compassion. You and your family will always remain in my prayers. There are few bridges you can burn that I am unwilling to mend. You are better […]

declaring myself an arbiter of proper ladylike behavior

Today I officially declared myself an arbiter of proper ladylike behavior. Issued the announcement via Twitter and Facebook: Obviously I’m not a perfect lady myself, having immediately mocked the whole concept by using foul language in the second sentence of the announcement tweet. But this speaks to a fundamental issue: A proper lady will not […]

women’s style recommendation with artificial intelligence (part #2)

In “women’s style recommendation with artificial intelligence (part #1)”, I introduced my work toward developing artificial intelligence (AI) for fashion and style recommendation. Essentially, its an expert system built on a Bayesian belief network. Now I discuss model validation and next steps in the design iteration process. I first wanted to see if the trained […]

I figured out this whole “ladylike” thing today

“A ‘lady’ is a woman who, through her mere presence, simultaneously commands power while setting others at ease.” – Emily Marie Williams I achieved public womanhood on 14 July 2015 when I declared myself a woman before a judge and started living full-time as one. But as discussed several times on this blog, I work […]

women’s style recommendation with artificial intelligence (part #1)

Introduction We know several basic style “rules” (ha!) based on body shape: Skirts: “Apple” Body Shape: IF body shape is apple AND skirt has front zipper THEN don’t wear IF body shape is apple AND skirt has side zipper THEN wear IF body shape is apple AND skirt has no zipper THEN wear “Rectangular” Body […]

a non-linear and holistic work ethic

I started working out a holistic map of my work ethic and work values, and quickly found that linearity failed to cut it. Essentially, I need to capture the interdependencies between spiritual, social, and financial wealth. More importantly, I need to illustrate the crucial balance between these factors. Enter non-linear system dynamics: Simulation, based on […]

why we still need cyberpunk

William Gibson penned Neuromancer over thirty years ago, and the 1990’s ended viciously on 9/11. With the exception of cyberfeminism, I wrote off “cyberpunk” as an ethic once we as a society stopped saying “cyber” and replaced the word with “online”. Yesterday I traced partial assets of an individual I distrusted—and needed the straight dope […]

why I didn’t suicide this morning

I’m publishing this strategy because maybe it will help someone else survive in the future: I feel an intense psychiatric compulsion to suicide every time I experience romantic heartbreak. It’s simply part of my bipolar disorder (which I improve management of everyday). Usually I’m well adept at handling these situations and moving quickly out of […]

my spinning moral compass

I’ve discovered a complete willingness to manipulate men into one-night stands purely to stroke my ego. (The trick is to let men feel like their own ego is in charge). However, I experience complete moral repulsion at the idea of treating women this way. I think my reason comes from evolutionary psychology: Women may become […]