fighting psychosis with psychosis

This method isn’t for the weak-minded: But I’m not a bit weak-minded and the strategy described below suggested potential when I tested it on myself. (That makes this an n=1 study—hardly scientific—but exploratory research has to start somewhere!). Background: I carry a long and well-documented case of bipolar disorder, and have become skilled at handling […]

how to be a rock star

Lesson One Stop caring about what other people think of you. Lesson Two While nervousness proves a real, honest challenge, never let it show! Lesson Three Make it look easy. Lesson Four Be prepared! Strings break, equipment fails, batteries die, and sound systems and room acoustics often suck. Be prepared! Lesson Five The show must […]

lessons in sexual technique from a whore

This story is currently under review and revision to ensure use of respectful terminology and clear statement of goals: “Become a world-class lover. Own yourself. Own your power.” – Emily Marie Williams My research concerning quality sexual technique leads me interesting places, most of which I will not reveal. On this website, I’ve previously discussed […]

god likes scientists

I don’t believe in astrology, but I do firmly believe in the Resurrection. As far as scientific evidence goes, both prove equally absurd. WTF? Why accept even one of them? Why not both? I have no good answer for this! I could say that “events” in my life confirm my Christian experience, but that might […]

the “system” and all the bars on the cage

If you only see one bar at a time, you will not know that you reside in a cage. Here I attempt a systemic view, a whole picture. This work requires further refinement, but it’s a good start: Update 5 August 2018 I received the following (welcome) response to this graphic: I responded as follows: […]

cybernetic cunt

I don’t own a clitoris and I don’t own a g-spot. But I posit that I “hit” them orgasmically using my mind. The thing is, (I think) all humans hold the genetic code for this anatomy, regardless of phenotype. We all therefore likely possess the neural mappings “connected” to the activation of these nerves. Taking […]

curvilinear optimism

Consider the following exponential growth curve: This shows how the possible consequences of a decision do not just vary over time; the magnitude of that variance itself increases with time. For example, suppose you do something reckless like join the circus, start a business, or express love. You not only do not know the short- […]

thriving vs. merely surviving

Often I lose sight of my longterm goal (to thrive) to make room in my psyche for my short term survival goals related to preventing self harm. Realized this morning that this behavior only “positively” feedbacks into the distress itself—that giving a measured quantity of attention toward thriving will better dampen the distress in the […]