numb penis

To prepare for gender affirmation surgery, I’m having hair removed from my testes and penile shaft through electrolysis. To manage pain, I numb the area prior to each session using tetracaine. I like having a numb penis. Then I can’t feel a part of my body that I don’t particularly want, don’t feel particularly attached […]

artificial intelligence in fashion (part one: brainstorming)

Brainstorming as usual: Fashion dictums involve many IF-THEN-ELSE rules. One can convert this into a decision engine (inference engine). User specifies their body shape, and a recommendation engine selects suitable clothing for them, taking into account the user’s tastes. Upload an image of a dress you want to buy, and specify the dress’s given size. […]

“distorted and out of tune” – a troll (sort of) gets it

I received the following response from a troll regarding music [4] I released recently: The music is “distorted” and dissonant—and would sound “out of tune” to many who lack musical sophistication. That is intentional. A compositional choice. And the dissonance intentionally speaks to the experience of feeling “out of tune” as a transgender person. So […]

delivering sex appeal to a job interview

About a week ago I attended my first job interview as a woman. There was so much more to think about than before: Fear of discrimination as a woman interviewing for a technical and scientific position Fear of discrimination as a transgender person Keeping my voice in a feminine pitch range for the duration of […]

hypothesis #1

Hypothesis: Women generally excel at mindfulness over men because living in a patriarchy forces us to. I can envision an experiment to test the first part of this hypothesis:  Put statistically representative samples of men and women through a battery of psychological tests to measure mindfulness, and then compare the sample medians. However, establishing the […]

vocal frequency response

I now can speak consistently for an hour in a feminine voice—decent pitch, resonance, and inflection—before needing to rest. Moreover, my voice now passes on the phone. So my voice therapist and I decided to tackle my singing range, to feminize that as well. (Followers of Axis Evil know I sing with a masculine voice […]

estrogen deficit disorder

Potential correlation: I’ve recently upped my estrogen dose, and have recently been happier than I’ve been at anytime in the last two years. What if the two are related? What if my brain expects a certain baseline level of estrogen to function best that it never received until now? There is evidence that hormone administration […]

at the genetics conference

We (scientists), suspect a genetic component to gender dysphoria. While that may not be the full explanation, it might be a factor. See “the science of gender identity (part 1: genetics)” for my previous analysis of this subject. CRISPR/Cas9 technology allows us to edit genomes early in life. The idea is that we can replace […]