feminine Chakras

I’m a bit of a mystic, and draw my practices and insight from multiple mystical traditions. My experiences mostly relate to Christian mysticism, which is largely ignored in the West, but I get around: I’ve prayed in Hindu ceremonies, dropped LSD to vision quest, and experienced healing through Sufi faith-healing rituals; to name a few. […]

lyrics: “Smelly Cunt”

I referred to this song in my recent post “a smelly cunt and a mission from God“, so provide the lyrics here. The piece comes from my debut album “City of God“. The post “this is transgender music” offers a detailed explanation of the lyrics. Recording City of God by Axis Evil Lyrics I’ve never […]

delivering sex appeal to a job interview

About a week ago I attended my first job interview as a woman. There was so much more to think about than before: Fear of discrimination as a woman interviewing for a technical and scientific position Fear of discrimination as a transgender person Keeping my voice in a feminine pitch range for the duration of […]

enjoying a man’s patronization

Today at the bar a man I’d never seen before glanced at my highly scarred arm and said: “Oh sweetie, looks like you got an owie.” He appeared roughly ten years older than me and quite attractive. Nice voice. Nice pheromones. I liked him immediately. Yes the words patronized me—treated me like a child. (He […]

the ideal woman (Hell’s r&d department)

I’m simply going to quote the section on creating the “ideal woman” from the Screwtape Letters. You can purchase the book in multiple formats here. In a rough and ready way, of course, this question is decided for us by spirits far deeper down in the Lowerarchy than you and I. It is the business of […]

renaming my penis

Many guys name their penises. I never did until about ten years ago when my spouse at the time asked me what mine’s name is. I jokingly and instantly responded “Penelope”. What I didn’t think of until last night was the similarity between the words “Penel(ope)” and “penile”. However, I’m now working under the theory […]

new album!

Just released a new album today: Light Me Up and Love the Bomb by Axis Evil The cover photo was taken of graffiti in Kashmir. Three of the songs explore my evolving feminine sexuality. The other two are sitar instrumentals. Three of the songs on this album are described in my post “this is transgender […]

vision quest, punishment, and burning desire

I’m on a conscious mission to rid all my remaining masculinity from my subconscious, and I’m constantly looking for tools to help me do it. — From my post “corset training“ Smoking weed puts me in touch with my base sexuality like nothing else, and femininity consumes my base sexuality. And my base sexuality demands […]