I figured out this whole “ladylike” thing today

“A ‘lady’ is a woman who, through her mere presence, simultaneously commands power while setting others at ease.” – Emily Marie Williams I achieved public womanhood on 14 July 2015 when I declared myself a woman before a judge and started living full-time as one. But as discussed several times on this blog, I work […]

Grrl on Grrl Podcast interviewed me!

Today my interview with Grrl on Grrl Podcast came out!  We discuss, among other things, The science of gender identity The music of Axis Evil “Ladylike” behavior as a source of personal empowerment Cultural appropriation Psychosexuality Model minorities Big thanks to June Owatari of Grrl on Grrl Podcast for working so hard to put this […]

draft lyrics: “Gutter Priestess”

Mystic in a concrete kingdom Sensitive and ambitious A live-wire and its conduit Bold and powerless in transmission Mystic in a concrete kingdom We dwell in grandiosity In this existential wasteland We dwell in poverty Light up your Joules per second Eject your free energy Spike that ball and give it to me Priestess in […]

lyrics: “Smelly Cunt”

I referred to this song in my recent post “a smelly cunt and a mission from God“, so provide the lyrics here. The piece comes from my debut album “City of God“. The post “this is transgender music” offers a detailed explanation of the lyrics. Recording City of God by Axis Evil Lyrics I’ve never […]

delivering sex appeal to a job interview

About a week ago I attended my first job interview as a woman. There was so much more to think about than before: Fear of discrimination as a woman interviewing for a technical and scientific position Fear of discrimination as a transgender person Keeping my voice in a feminine pitch range for the duration of […]

enjoying a man’s patronization

Today at the bar a man I’d never seen before glanced at my highly scarred arm and said: “Oh sweetie, looks like you got an owie.” He appeared roughly ten years older than me and quite attractive. Nice voice. Nice pheromones. I liked him immediately. Yes the words patronized me—treated me like a child. (He […]

hypothesis #1

Hypothesis: Women generally excel at mindfulness over men because living in a patriarchy forces us to. I can envision an experiment to test the first part of this hypothesis:  Put statistically representative samples of men and women through a battery of psychological tests to measure mindfulness, and then compare the sample medians. However, establishing the […]

taking abuse for not being “ladylike” enough

I expect that many women receive abuse from their loved ones for not being “feminine” enough, by which these loved ones mean not being “ladylike” enough. I received such abuse for the first time in my life last night, from a mentor and dear friend. He is a keen observer of woman and generally a […]

new album!

Just released a new album today: Light Me Up and Love the Bomb by Axis Evil The cover photo was taken of graffiti in Kashmir. Three of the songs explore my evolving feminine sexuality. The other two are sitar instrumentals. Three of the songs on this album are described in my post “this is transgender […]

working out my concept of “lady” (part 2: my revolutionary demand)

I’m developing a vision of what “being a lady” means to me (and only me!), with the full intent to live it out boldly and dramatically for the rest of my life. Notice I said “lady” here, not “woman”. I feel I have to constantly remind people that these are different concepts. As I’ve stated […]