a smelly cunt and a mission from God

Yesterday I received a firm reminder of why I write this blog, and why I write the songs I do: The message came from Drew Arriola-Sands, the fabulous singer of Trap Girl. But that is beside the point. The important thing is how she referred to me in the birthday greeting. “Smelly Cunt” is a […]

perhaps my stage presence is too masculine… (part 2)

In my recent post “perhaps my stage presence is too masculine… (part 1)”, I ask whether I move too much like a guy while performing, and ask whether I care. I worked out my answers to both questions: Yes, and yes. The video posted below shows the problem: My movement to the music flows from […]

vocal frequency response

I now can speak consistently for an hour in a feminine voice—decent pitch, resonance, and inflection—before needing to rest. Moreover, my voice now passes on the phone. So my voice therapist and I decided to tackle my singing range, to feminize that as well. (Followers of Axis Evil know I sing with a masculine voice […]

the one song I kept (artistic synthesis)

I’ve released two rock albums since transitioning. Moreover, these are the only albums I’ve ever released. I wrote all the songs for these albums post-transition… except one. Here I talk about that one and why I kept it. The song is called “Voice in the Distance” and it appears on my debut album “City of […]

new album!

Just released a new album today: Light Me Up and Love the Bomb by Axis Evil The cover photo was taken of graffiti in Kashmir. Three of the songs explore my evolving feminine sexuality. The other two are sitar instrumentals. Three of the songs on this album are described in my post “this is transgender […]

draft lyrics about bipolar disorder and gender dysphoria

I wrote these lyrics a decade ago to explain bipolar disorder to myself. They also are about distraction-seeking behavior with regard to the stress of gender dysphoria: I was a kid driving blind when I wanted distraction Looking for God or a new manic high Looking for privilege or a new discontentment Looking for someone […]

using video to help feminize my walk, posture, voice, and body language (part 1)

I bought a video camera today so that I may film myself walking to see how better I can feminize how I carry myself. I’m looking to project poise and feminine power, of course, and to deliver a sexy strut! Using the camera will also help me work on posture, correct sitting, and giving presentations […]