a non-linear and holistic work ethic

I started working out a holistic map of my work ethic and work values, and quickly found that linearity failed to cut it. Essentially, I need to capture the interdependencies between spiritual, social, and financial wealth. More importantly, I need to illustrate the crucial balance between these factors. Enter non-linear system dynamics: Simulation, based on […]

power and sexual technique

Competence proves extremely sexy. My firm desire (pun intended) is that all women, particularly transgender women, take complete ownership over their presence and their bodies. Presence emits power. Ownership delivers power. Here I refer to “power” in a feminine network sense, enabling women full constructive influence within the relationships they build and expand. These relationships […]

draft lyrics: “Gutter Priestess”

Mystic in a concrete kingdom Sensitive and ambitious A live-wire and its conduit Bold and powerless in transmission Mystic in a concrete kingdom We dwell in grandiosity In this existential wasteland We dwell in poverty Light up your Joules per second Eject your free energy Spike that ball and give it to me Priestess in […]

enjoying a man’s patronization

Today at the bar a man I’d never seen before glanced at my highly scarred arm and said: “Oh sweetie, looks like you got an owie.” He appeared roughly ten years older than me and quite attractive. Nice voice. Nice pheromones. I liked him immediately. Yes the words patronized me—treated me like a child. (He […]

the ideal woman (Hell’s r&d department)

I’m simply going to quote the section on creating the “ideal woman” from the Screwtape Letters. You can purchase the book in multiple formats here. In a rough and ready way, of course, this question is decided for us by spirits far deeper down in the Lowerarchy than you and I. It is the business of […]

sissy fashion

I’m too badass to succeed as a sissy, though I’ll admit I fantasize about the lifestyle. The most I could manage is compliant, submissive housewife. But I love sissy fashion. Going to start pulling it off in my day-to-day attire. Started by buying the frilliest dresses I could find and a derby hat. Next going […]

a derby hat and a sex offer

As per my interest in cultivating a look that screams “feminine”, I bought a derby hat from Goodwill today. At the same time I bought a pair of white high-heeled sandals. Wore both out of the store. In the parking lot a man immediately pitched a sex offer. Later that day two additional men expressed […]

on the ethics of loving someone when you are about to transition publicly

So in my last post and in “martyr”, I mentioned “Carol”, who I hold deep feelings for. I fell in love with her approximately two years ago, about three months before my public transition. When I love somebody romantically, I usually tell them straight away. With Carol, I waited until several months after my transition. […]

explaining what my being “transgender” means to a suitor

I’m getting to know a man I really like, who claims to know that I’m transgender. But I need to ensure he really knows what my being transgender means before we become too serious, so I wrote this description for him. It applies only to me, not to other transgender people. What My Being Transgender […]

taking a cue from Mary Magdalene

The femininity expressed in my spiritual life expands daily. My attraction to men grows by the hour. Perhaps these events are correlated. I’ve figured out that I too would sleep with Jesus. I do not say this to mock God—quite the contrary: This realization is the only way I can comprehend a completely masculine God. […]