new song: “3Jane”

Lyrics Growing a new philosophy is it grand design, or subtle folly? The serpent was anything but… …but this was an engineered forest, its fruit a postmodern delight Recording Experiments by Axis Evil Explanation Wrote this sometime in the late 1990’s while working through my gender dysphoria (and identity and bipolar disorder in general) as […]

thrift store mysticism

I treat thrift store shopping as a mystical experience, as a spiritual discipline. Being somewhat of a mystic, and a massive optimist (see my post “curvilinear optimism“), I tend to believe that the Universe (or the Divine if you prefer) provides what we need to accomplish our missions in life as we need it (or […]

god likes scientists

I don’t believe in astrology, but I do firmly believe in the Resurrection. As far as scientific evidence goes, both prove equally absurd. WTF? Why accept even one of them? Why not both? I have no good answer for this! I could say that “events” in my life confirm my Christian experience, but that might […]

an allegory of affection from a Hindu goddess

I experienced the following dream: Walking through wilderness, I came upon a female tiger. She considered me, and I considered her—I calculated my next move through my fear, she simply calculated. Rapidly concluded that if I ran she’d chase me down and eat me. So I held my head up and approached her gently. Reached […]

here is my other cheek

An open letter, because direct contact is shut off: ———, Here is my other cheek:  Threaten me again if you must. You have my complete forgiveness and infinite compassion. You and your family will always remain in my prayers. There are few bridges you can burn that I am unwilling to mend. You are better […]

on adoptee violence

The following is a letter to a friend, who asked me about using DNA sequencing to find an explanation for her adopted, adolescent son’s violent behavior: K——-, I’ve thought much about violence from adoptees, as a woman I deeply love experiences the same behavior from her daughter(s). Interestingly, she adopted her daughters from a Russian […]

a non-linear and holistic work ethic

I started working out a holistic map of my work ethic and work values, and quickly found that linearity failed to cut it. Essentially, I need to capture the interdependencies between spiritual, social, and financial wealth. More importantly, I need to illustrate the crucial balance between these factors. Enter non-linear system dynamics: Simulation, based on […]

why we still need cyberpunk

William Gibson penned Neuromancer over thirty years ago, and the 1990’s ended viciously on 9/11. With the exception of cyberfeminism, I wrote off “cyberpunk” as an ethic once we as a society stopped saying “cyber” and replaced the word with “online”. Yesterday I traced partial assets of an individual I distrusted—and needed the straight dope […]