delivering sex appeal to a job interview

About a week ago I attended my first job interview as a woman. There was so much more to think about than before: Fear of discrimination as a woman interviewing for a technical and scientific position Fear of discrimination as a transgender person Keeping my voice in a feminine pitch range for the duration of […]

enjoying a man’s patronization

Today at the bar a man I’d never seen before glanced at my highly scarred arm and said: “Oh sweetie, looks like you got an owie.” He appeared roughly ten years older than me and quite attractive. Nice voice. Nice pheromones. I liked him immediately. Yes the words patronized me—treated me like a child. (He […]

hypothesis #1

Hypothesis: Women generally excel at mindfulness over men because living in a patriarchy forces us to. I can envision an experiment to test the first part of this hypothesis:  Put statistically representative samples of men and women through a battery of psychological tests to measure mindfulness, and then compare the sample medians. However, establishing the […]

taking abuse for not being “ladylike” enough

I expect that many women receive abuse from their loved ones for not being “feminine” enough, by which these loved ones mean not being “ladylike” enough. I received such abuse for the first time in my life last night, from a mentor and dear friend. He is a keen observer of woman and generally a […]

new album!

Just released a new album today: Light Me Up and Love the Bomb by Axis Evil The cover photo was taken of graffiti in Kashmir. Three of the songs explore my evolving feminine sexuality. The other two are sitar instrumentals. Three of the songs on this album are described in my post “this is transgender […]

working out my concept of “lady” (part 2: my revolutionary demand)

I’m developing a vision of what “being a lady” means to me (and only me!), with the full intent to live it out boldly and dramatically for the rest of my life. Notice I said “lady” here, not “woman”. I feel I have to constantly remind people that these are different concepts. As I’ve stated […]

on my frequent use of the word “hacker”

I use the terms “hacker” and “hacking” often, reclaiming and broadening the terms. The term “hacker” has come to solely mean an individual that illegally breaks into computer networks. This was not the original meaning. Originally, it meant a computer-savvy, creative individual. One who could make computers do cool things. One who can alter and […]