fighting psychosis with psychosis

This method isn’t for the weak-minded: But I’m not a bit weak-minded and the strategy described below suggested potential when I tested it on myself. (That makes this an n=1 study—hardly scientific—but exploratory research has to start somewhere!). Background: I carry a long and well-documented case of bipolar disorder, and have become skilled at handling […]

thriving vs. merely surviving

Often I lose sight of my longterm goal (to thrive) to make room in my psyche for my short term survival goals related to preventing self harm. Realized this morning that this behavior only “positively” feedbacks into the distress itself—that giving a measured quantity of attention toward thriving will better dampen the distress in the […]

declaring myself an arbiter of proper ladylike behavior

Today I officially declared myself an arbiter of proper ladylike behavior. Issued the announcement via Twitter and Facebook: Obviously I’m not a perfect lady myself, having immediately mocked the whole concept by using foul language in the second sentence of the announcement tweet. But this speaks to a fundamental issue: A proper lady will not […]

hypothesis #1

Hypothesis: Women generally excel at mindfulness over men because living in a patriarchy forces us to. I can envision an experiment to test the first part of this hypothesis:  Put statistically representative samples of men and women through a battery of psychological tests to measure mindfulness, and then compare the sample medians. However, establishing the […]

repairing jewelry as metaphor

Lately I repaired several pieces of jewelry that have been laying around, cluttering my limited storage space. Not only did that action reduce the clutter but it turned out to be a metaphor for reconstructing my life out of my recent psychiatric crisis. I own an excessive amount of jewelry, which I cling to psychologically […]

poise, leadership, and mindfulness

I think a lot about poise: How to cultivate it, how to maintain it, what it means. I also think (and write) much about leadership. Concluded that the two overlap substantially. Further concluded that mindfulness forms the glue that holds them together. Please permit me to elaborate: Recently I developed my own description of poise […]

working out my concept of “lady” (part 2: my revolutionary demand)

I’m developing a vision of what “being a lady” means to me (and only me!), with the full intent to live it out boldly and dramatically for the rest of my life. Notice I said “lady” here, not “woman”. I feel I have to constantly remind people that these are different concepts. As I’ve stated […]